LET ME WAKE UP IN THE REAL WORLD THIS TIME FOR CHRIST'S SAKE! - UPDATED

**AM I REALLY AWAKE?**
 **OR AM I STILL DREAMING?** 
(UPDATED!)

"WHAT A MESSED UP REALITY..."

"WAKE UP NOW!!!!"

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THIS IS MY OWN, RACHEL LIVINGSTON'S,  PERSONAL ACCOUNTS AND EXPERIENCES WITH: LUCID DREAMS AND MULTIPLE FALSE AWAKENINGS. 

THE FRUSTRATION!

THIS IS WHAT I GO THROUGH ALMOST EVERY SINGLE NIGHT OF MY LIFE. I HAVE POSTED AN ENTRY ON THIS SUBJECT BEFORE BUT I WANT TO TELL YOU WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS EVERY NIGHT. IT ALL STARTED HAPPENING ABOUT ONE OR TWO YEARS AGO. READY?. HERE IT GOES....

I have a love/hate relationship with Dreams. I have really, really VIVID dreams. Most the time they are lucid dreams OR false awakenings, and some times, actually a lot of the time, I will have false awakening and lucid dreams at the same time!  

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---> BY THE WAY IF YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT A FALSE AWAKENING(S) IS HERE IS AN ENTRY THAT TELLS YOU ALL ABOUT FALSE AWAKENINGS THAT I POSTED HERE IN MY PARANORMAL BLOG. HERE IS THE URL TO THE ENTRY BELOW: 

http://rlivingstonparanormalexperience.blogspot.com/2012/11/false-awakenings.html 

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ANYWAYS, False awakenings are so frustrating!!! I have false awakening dreams and lucid dreams every night, literally.

When I lucid dream it's really easy for me. It's weird because I don't try to lucid dream on purpose, I don't even have to try, I just do...When I first started lucid dreaming a couple of years ago it just started to happen. I wasn't trying to lucid dream or anything.

In the beginning, when the lucid dreams started, here is how the dreams went: This is how it all began. And, again, mind you, I never in my life have tried to purposely lucid dream. I just started doing it and I don't know why.

Anyway, In the beginning I would often dream that I was going to the bathroom and when I tried to shut the bathroom door it wouldn't shut. And the bathroom door shuts just fine in real life. When this happened in my dreams I started to think that it was suspicious that the door wasn't shutting and I eventually realized that I was dreaming whenever the bathroom door wouldn't shut. Then, that's when I started to have some fun and lucid dream.

The whole bathroom door thing went on for a while but eventually I didn't need the bathroom door to realize that I was dreaming. Now days when I am dreaming all it takes is just something abnormal and I quickly realize that I am dreaming and begin to lucid dream.

For example: In one dream that I had about a month ago, was about me and my mother and we were sitting in the living room together . Then, while my mom was sitting next to me, she started smoking marijuana!!! It was then, instantly, I knew I was dreaming because my mom doesn't smoke marijuana and hasn't touched marijuana in her life!!! Then, I just started doing whatever I wanted. 
Because I knew that I was dreaming. 

One more example of this happened just the other night.


I was dreaming that I was in my room getting ready for bed, when I noticed a fish on my pillow. I got up close to it and noticed that the fish's gills were still moving. I thought to myself:

"Hey, what is this fish doing here? How is it still alive? Oh, I must be dreaming. This is a dream."

Then I put the fish in the tank with the other fish and started to stare at the fish. I made them change colors as they swam around. I decided to have a relaxing dream and just watch the fish and and make them change into pretty colors..

I even had some music going and I was also making the fish swim along to the music. Then after that I started drifting back into a non - lucid dream state and started dreaming about some stupid conversation with my husband..hehe..Then, I woke up... into another dream. But that's another story..



 Like I said, It only takes little abnormal things in my dreams to make me quickly realize that I am dreaming. It just happens.

But a lot of the time when I am lucid dreaming I am also having multiple false awakenings. False awakenings are so stressful.
  
Here is an example of a common, annoying, false awakening(s) dream that I have often.

I will be doing something like hanging out with my husband then all of a sudden, I wake up in my bed, but I don't wake up for real, I wake up into another dream.

Then, I will dream again that I get up out of bed and I am hanging out with my husband and then,out of nowhere,he will say something off the wall. Then, that is when I realize that I am dreaming.


I will tell myself to wake up and I do wake up, but in another dream! In the dream that I just woke up in, I will  usually go to my husband and ask him if I am dreaming or awake. He usually says "You're crazy, you're awake, duh!" or something to that extent. But even after he says that I still wonder if I am really awake or not. 

Then, something abnormal will happen and I will realize that I am still in a dream and I will start doing something lucidly, like walk around the house or go outside. 

Then, out of nowhere I wake up, but again I wake up into another dream!!!


And this goes on and on and on, and most the time I just get frustrated that I keep waking up into other dreams and I can't wake up for real. In my false awakenings I usually end up screaming to myself, in my head,  "WAKE UP!!" over and over and I struggle to wake up and even when I tell myself to wake up, I still find myself waking up in yet another freaking dream!

By the time I actually do wake up FOR REAL, I wonder if I am really awake. When I finally do realize I am really awake, I am relieved but at the same time I feel so drained from all the multiple false awakenings during the night, all night.

I don't mind lucid dreaming much, it's kind of fun, but false awakenings..ugh...they drive me crazy.

I swear, every night I either have a lucid dream or multiple false awakenings or a combination of lucid dreams and false awakenings....

I almost feel like I am cursed sometimes.



The only time I have good dreams are when they are only just lucid and not false awakenings. When I just have plain old lucid dreams I have fun. I never wake up feeling refreshed after false awakening nights. Like I said I either lucid dream, have false awakenings or a combination of  lucid and false awakening dreams every single night. This has been going on for about 1 to 2 years now.

I RARELY have dreams that are not lucid or are not false awakenings. But when I  have a normal dream , which is really rare for me, and almost non-existent, it's kind of nice to have a normal, sane, dream.

There you have it. That is what every night is like for me.


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Submitted By: Rachel Livingston 

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A Mother's Crossing

~My Mother's Crossing~

(Above: Aleta Tannlund and Holly Federle and Rachel Livingston)

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My Mother had been battling kidney cancer for some time, and was in the hospital after surgery.  

I stayed by her side until she passed, holding her hand and talking to her.

  Towards the end she was in a coma, (She had a cardiac arrest and they had brought her back, but she was in a coma, and hadn't opened her eyes for at least 24 hours).  

Making the decision to pull the plug didn't come easy. I however, looked at her and could tell that breathing machines or not, she wasn't going to long  for this world.  The Doctors gave her no hope for a meaningful recovery after everything that was going on with her. 

 However she was my best friend, and saying good bye was incredibly hard. Plus she had wanted everything done so she could stay in this world. 

 I remember talking to her telling her it was OK to let go, that we would be alright, and I would look after my family, my daughter, my Aunt and my brothers etc.  

She continued to linger....I really didn't know why, and the nurse suggested that I tell her that I would be OK as well.  It wasn't until I did this that I believe she could let go. Even though she lasted sometime after the life sustaining drugs and the mechanical breathing tube were stopped... She wasn't able to respond to either me or the nurse being in the room.  

Suddenly, she opened her eyes really big and was so obviously starring at something in the room and to the right.... neither us us could see. 

 It brought up goose bumps. The hair on the back of my neck stood up.

 The nurse commented on it as well.  Within a moment she was gone. I don't know how many of you have actually been with a person who has passed at the moment of death but it was such an honor to be with her at this time.

  As a nurse, I've been privileged enough to be present in both births and deaths, and I can tell you there is something almost magical about both. 

 It was obvious when she finally did pass, that the spirit had passed, and it was only a shell of who she was, that had stayed behind.

I had a dream shortly thereafter that my Uncle Bill, who had passed before my Mom had been there  beckoning my mother, and had been there to escort my Mom to the other side.  The dream gave me a little peace for some reason.

I continue to dream about her frequently, and I truly believe I will see her again someday...I know she is with me.  My daughter (this Website owner) was incredibly close to her as well...and has had many dreams about her as well.  

  I know that many psychics believe that when you dream of a person who have passed on, that this is a form of communication with the departed, and I really do believe this.

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Submitted By: Holly Federle

One Body...Two Places At Once...A Talk With Grandfather's Spirit

.... ONE BODY... TWO PLACES ... AND WORDS ARE SPOKEN TO THE DEAD....

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It was in the year of 1996.

(New year was just a few days left)

I don't know much about the time, but it was dark and my Mother was busy in the kitchen, so I think she was cooking..

We where watching TV, some soap my Sister always wanted to see.

Suddenly, my Sister got off the seat and started to walk.

She walked from from left to right, right to left, from window to window.....

She didn't talk, she just walked...

She did it for I think, 2 minutes, and came back to the seat.

She didn't watch the soap anymore.

 Her eyes were wide open, and I remember my Father was talking to her.

 He was asking,

"What's going on?".

 But there was no answer from my Sister.

After about 15 minutes, my Sister "came back". 

Then, my parents asked her,

 "What was that?" "What were you doing?" 

Before my Sister could answer, the phone started ringing. 

At that point my Sister stood up!

She screamed, shouted, and cried for them NOT to pick up the phone!!

She was mad, and angry, at everyone who would pick up the phone!!

But everyone knows how parents are.  They just picked up the phone.

It was a message that my Grandfather died. 

Just 20 minutes ago.

Well, this is what happened to my Sister, at the moment she started to walk...

Her body was at home, with me and my parents.

 I did see her! 

But her mind was in the hospital with my Grandfather.

They even had a chat with each other. 

I don't know what it was about.

 My Sister never told anyone about it. She just said that they talked.

And after the chat between my Sister and Grandfather, my Grandfather died in my Sister's arms!!!

How weird is that!!??

She was at 2 places at the same time!

Until the day of today, we never talk about it, just because my Sister is afraid of it. 

She can't accept paranormal things.

I see now paranormal stuff with her 8 years old son.

But that's an whole different story.

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Submitted by: Justin

DEATH AND BIRTH: MY MOM'S EXPERIENCE

~*~RACHEL LIVINGSTON'S MOTHER~*~

~*~HOLLY FEDERLE'S EXPERIENCE~*~

(Above: Holly Federle and Rachel Livingston - Photo Edited By: Rachel Aleta Livingston)

~*~ THIS IS HOLLY'S AMAZING, EXPERIENCE WITH DEATH AND BIRTH~*~

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 This story is very well known to you, Rachel Livingston, as we have talked about it many times.

You and I had a very difficult birth.You were in distress, and I was losing blood, and near death. 

 By the time you were born, the cord was around your neck, and you weren't breathing.
  I saw you being whisked over to the incubator, and watched as they resuscitated  you.  

I saw the Dr working on me..

It was all very clear in my mind except for the fact that when I told your Father about it, he said it was impossible that I could have seen any of it as my
eyes were rolled back in my head and near death.
I started to think about the whole experience because I knew I had seen it so clearly,

and I suddenly realized that I was seeing it from the ceiling over my body, and I could actually see everything that was going on in the room to the minute detail.......even my own body laying on the table. 

I guess that's what you would call an out of body experience.  

In my  51 years of life, I have had many paranormal experiences, and as my daughter has said we come from a long line of mediums on my mother's side.  

I've lived in a haunted house.......

I was haunted by my deceased Father for a long time, and have had many unusual experiences.

 My daughter, the author of this website is quite psychic as well. 
 I consider it an honor and a gift.  

I have found recently my half sisters on my fathers side, with whom I had never met, AND they are all into the paranormal...mediums clairvoyants  and such...How Strange is That?  I definitely believe that it runs in families and how could we miss! 

 I have many more stories to share. and will along the way.....but for now, well, let's leave it at that.

(Above: Holly Federle - Photo Taken and Edited By: Rachel Aleta Livingston)

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Submitted By: Holly Federle